Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And covered with a perfect shell,
Such a charming beautiful exterior.
Laced with briliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by
This is one time, this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please
Everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave,
The refuge that you've built to flee,
The places that you've come to fear the most.
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
And hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes,
Perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by,
But you're barely scraping by.
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
butterfly shit
Gosh I haven't written in this forever. Today... rei spent the night last night so we hung out today then i went shopping for like a bat and stuff with my dad and then had some hitting practice then went over to em's and went to church w/her and went back to her house and just hung out. Well since the last time i wrote in here uh.. well the butterflies guy... yeah well now... uhh well i think the best way to put it would be how MJB puts it. "Sounds like the butterflies all shat in your stomach" lol. He literally makes me sick when i think about him now... i don't know why, for like no reason all of a sudden i just started almost hating him. He didn't do anything, i'm just kinda bipolar like that sometimes when it comes to liking people. Oh well.
Posted at 10:28 pm by RachelNaomi22
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
aden malachi is a pimp
Today wasn't too awesome, I don't know why, it's just one of those days that wasn't amazing and you come home and just feel like 'man today sucked' lol. I wore an awesome retro vest from like the 60's that belonged to fill's grandma though, it was pretty tight. After school I had to go to Rogers for a double header against the Freeman Force (haha full force again)... they suck, but somehow we lost the first game. We just had a lot of errors. But we won the second game, so now our league record is 3-1... so, not bad but should be 4-0. I haven't been to practice in like 2 weeks so all i did was run for ppl and play left for the last inning. My coaches are all super pissed at me. I hate practice though. This weekend we have a tournament in Couer d Alene.. should be pretty cool, except i'm missing my aunt's UW graduation, so it sucks. Man i am sooo excited to get out of school.
Posted at 09:48 pm by RachelNaomi22
Monday, June 07, 2004
my eye itches, and i can never think of titles for blogs.
ahhh ill write it tomorrow
Posted at 11:16 pm by RachelNaomi22
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
fuck my sister in the ass please... shes a fucking bitch. and i love jess fowla
yesterday we had a double header after school, it started at 5:30 and i got a ride with Carly. in like the 3rd inning i was running fr someone and i was on third and we have to lead off every pitch in foul territory then come back in fair so that if the ball hits us we wont be out, and it will block the shot so we can still be safe... the effing catcher was such a bastard and kept trying to throw me out every pitch then on like the fourth pitch she beamed me in the back of my elbow that bitch it hurt so bad... then i couldn't be subbed out bc i was pinch running for someone so i had to stay out and when i got home the heffer clotheslined me and there wasn't even a play at home, she just threw me into the dirt for no fucking reason. my dad told me to just put it in a sling and not like move it a lot so yeah get to wear a sling lol, fucking awesome :(. well i started writing this a long time ago and never finished it, and i just finished it but now i cant remember what else i wanted to write about. eff.
Posted at 10:25 pm by RachelNaomi22
Monday, May 31, 2004
hey guys just to let you know we can order pizza if you guys want some pizza or if you want my mom can go to the store and pick up some pizza and we can just bake it you know if you guys want some otherwise we can have some mountain dew, i picked some up
My weekend has been pretty fun so far...
friday: i went to shrek 2 with reilly and kyle... it was so funny! i loved it a lot, like especially the part when shrek and donkey and puss n' boots were beng chased and it was like cops and they found drugs on puss. it was a good one but also the part about pinnochio wearing a thong... haha. then reilly stayed the night and i had to wake up at 5 on saturday and rei was still asleep then when i came home from my tournament (we played 4 games in a row) every single cd i owned was missing... the biotch. then i went to the fyb concert at the detour and no one was there so i felt like a groupie that just goes to every show no matter what. afterwards me and emily went to kyles and played with his kittens, rachel and emily. then i woke up at 5 again for the second day of my tournament and afterwards went home and slept until 6. I was late going to ems so they picked me up and i was all super scrubby bc i hadn't had time to de-sleep myself. fills was really fun. there was like about 12 ppl there and when we first got there we just rode his go-kart. then we bbqd and just like hung out. some people started to watch texas chainsaw massacre but some ppl didnt want to watch so they started a campfire. a few of the immunity/fyb guys brought their acoustics and everyone jammed it was so fun. we had smores too! then emily jessica and i stayed the night on emilys trampoline and we woke up to raindrops but decided to stay out there bc we were inside the sleeping bags so we werent getting wet, but then we saw that the water was comign from beneath us and on the sides so we ran inside and slept in the basement. then i was laying on ems bed later and she totally just walked into the room naked and scarred me for effing life bc she has weird after-shower habits... lol then we went to a movie with fill and eric tra (shrek 2 again!) and then i went to lowes with my dad then came home and played piano for a long time. whew that was a long sentence. goodnight!
p.s. i love jessica fowler and emily gwinn
Posted at 12:55 pm by RachelNaomi22
Thursday, May 27, 2004
suck
today wasn't that bad, except i took a math test after school that i bombed four shore. after school, went to rosauers with traci and krista and got some cookies haha... then went to softball, then left early from softball to go to that concert at the big easy... even though i found out when i got there that fyb didn't even play til later. They played really well, I thought. I love Erik Walter's voice, I just realized that these past few times I've seen them perform. After the show at the detour i had that "I'm On Your Side" or i dont know the real name of it, but i had that song stuck in my head for like days and now i have it in my head again. its not my favorite song they play or anything, i jsut always get it stuck, i dont know why. like about an hour and a half ago i started getting really effing depressed and i dont know why. i hate that. i think i have a chemical imbalance or some shit lol because i get all depressed randomly sometimes and it sucks. i want to go to sleep really bad but i have to do a ton of hw so byebye... :(
Posted at 10:27 pm by RachelNaomi22
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
my nose is crying
all my classes sucked balls today, but i didn't go to 5th bc we had a test and I hadn't finished all the hw, and we turn in all our hw on days of tests. today was a 1-3-5 day, so actually 2/3 classes sucked since i wasnt in 5th. lunch was fun as usual, and skipping was fun because i didnt want to go by myself, so during passing period before 5th i was asking ppl if they wanted to skip w/ me and Danny Darco came. Haha i love that kid he is hilarious. I remember last year he tried buying soem fries at chase with a folded dollar that had dog poo inside it.. lmao it was so funny i was in line right behind him. But yeah we walked down to McD's and neither of us had money, so we just drank creamers and talked. It was pretty fun. After school i came home, and i like, i havent been home right after school for a long time, im not used to havign so much free time, so i just like sat around and drooled bc i didn't know what to do with the extra time. i ended up playing piano then talking on the phone with emily & fill, but it was awkward for like half an hour. krista and traci randomly stopped by my house while i was on the phone, so i went outside and talked to them for a bit and they were like "come to rosaurs with us and get a cookie" and i wanted to but i was still on the phone and itd be rude to just hang up so i didnt go. i laughed afterwards because it was really random to just come to my house to invite me to go for a cookie at rosaurs, but it was funny lol. I love it when people randomly call you for no reason or just randomly show up at your house. it makes you feel loved. I caught up on my math and listened to a new incubus cd fill burned for me today, after i got off the phone etc. now i'm here.
everyone go to the big easy at 6:30 tomorrow to watch for years blue (they actually play at 7:00 so i guess you could go then, but doors open at 6:30) it's $5, but free if you already have a ticket.
see you tomorrow!
p.s. my nose is crying bc i have allergies and its super runny right now... cute huh?
Posted at 09:23 pm by RachelNaomi22
Monday, May 24, 2004
yay!
Today...
spanish sucked, we came in 4th our of 5 teams in our game, and i really needed the extra credit.
global issues sucked, i hate taking those effing 4 pages of effing notes he always gives us
science was boring, but ok bc i caught up on a lot of stuff.
lunch was pretty fun, i brought my chase yearbook for kelly so he could see the girl that he likes now last year.. haha no offense kelly but shes not the hottest egg in the pan... weird analogy i just made it up myself!
english wasnt that bad... I had to recite 16 lines of Juliet that we had to memorize... you know "O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?... etc"
Math, as usual sucked a fat cock. i hate math
p.e. we played tennis, man reilly sucks at tennis but it was pretty fun hehe. it was hecka nice outside and it was fun to just be running around out there in the nice ass weather.
After school, took a Walther test that I was gone for, and Fill sat in there with me, then we couldn't get a ride over to Em's, so we were thinking about walking the 25 or something blocks, but then Ben gave us a ride. so we went to emily's and jumped around on the tramp and just hung out then went and picked up Luke, and jumped on Lando's trampoline (I did a sucky front flip!) man Landin has the best tramp in the universe. ask anyone. its true. then we all went back to em's and "studied" for our jacobson test tomorrow. fill and luke are the smart ones so they tutored me and em, but we didnt learn much. so we just hung out, and Cheryl made chocolate cake hehe. then we all went to youth group. it was way fun, everyone should go... mondays from 7:00-8:45ish.
We are getting skylights in our kitchen and they are way cool.
I love youth group. I also love where i am right now in my loife its pretty effin fun. I also love you, biotch. oh yeah, and mean girls rocks the socks off of the lock box.
love
rachelee
Posted at 09:47 pm by RachelNaomi22
Friday, May 21, 2004
i l o v e r a i n
... right now it is pouring outside, it's amazing. There's thunder and lightning and tons and tons of rain. I LOVE it. Everything looks so alive right now. I love just laying on my bed listening to like some dashboard or fiona or something and just watching the rain. eff, it rocks. I think rain is one of my favorite things of all time. I love the smell, the taste, the sound... i love just standing out in the rain.
Posted at 05:06 pm by RachelNaomi22
Thursday, May 20, 2004
today was kinda biploar
Woke up at 6:20 and my alarm was set for 6:45 so I layed in bed and thought about what I'm doing today, was I'm going to wear, how I'm going to do my hair, if I have to do any homework at lunch, remembering I'm leaving after 2nd to skip and go to lc with Emily and Fill, how I love this song (February Stars by the Foo Fighters), that guy that the first entry was about, etc. so then when my alarm went off I started getting ready. I don't know why (that's a song) I set my alarm so early,we dont have to be at school til 9:00 on wednesdays and thursdays (suck it, lc) but i was still almost late hehe. in second period we watched this movie on some massacre in Africa, it was so sad, Molly and I were crying but at the end Charlie was like "so anyways guys...." lol how insensitive. after that i ran around campus like 4.5 times looking for Emily so we could skip then she found me in the cafeteria. then we saw Fill and he's all "ah I don't want to anymore" I'm like "yeah ya do" hes like "ok." so he comes and Cheryl brings us to lc... omg I am in love with lc's campus. bitches. im jealous. so then we watched immunity and like said hi n stuff to people it was fun. afterwards we went to costco for lunch then we went back and p.e. sucked a huge nut. Reilly and i had "get that dirt off your shoulder" or whatever stuck in our heads so she kept putting dirt on peoples shoulders while we were playing p.e. softball which is gay, and they kept brushing it off hehe.
After school i went to starbucks to study for a stupid test in g.i. with molls. then when i came home did soem stupid hw then got depressed for no reason. i hate that. then aaron cheered me up. thanks aaron. thanks also for the shaft today. eric tra also cheered me up. thanks eric. thanks also for the effing hilarious tree conversation we had today. then had some other interesting conversations. Now MJB is calling. Jessica is a lucky bitch, a lucky loving bitch, and i am a jealous bitch.
Oh yeah, the reason my day was bipolar was bc everything was seemingly sucky except for lunch and the cheer ups but then when i was all depressed, i noticed it was raining outside (i sooo love the rain, it's like my favorite thing ever) and I got this urge to play canon in D, which im just learning, and i went and i played it perfectly and it sounded amazing and i looked outside just as i was playing that last little part and it was beautiful and Sara (my dawg) was laying on my left foot and it was perfect. haha then i was in an awesome mood. I love dogs. I love piano. I love rain. I love canon in d. I love everything about that moment. It was pretty effin sweet.
right now i love everything, so i love you. so cheer up.
love,
rachel naomi lee
Posted at 09:18 pm by RachelNaomi22
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